Tell me..

How long will it be before I can wake up in the morning and not feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest? How long before I can go a whole day without thinking about what went wrong, when and why? How long before I don't breakdown in tears at least once a day because I feel so devastated? How long before I quit wanting to curl up on the couch in the fetal position and never move again? How long before I can look at my kids and not have my heart break over how this is all effecting them? How long before I don't feel so hopeless and utterly alone? How long will it be before I am not so filled with rage and pain that I could truely drowned in it? How long before every thought I have is not shadowed with thoughs of how big a failure I am? How long before I can go to bed at night and not think about how my husband doesn't love me anymore? How long before I can actually sleep peacefully? Tell me how long will it be before I actully want to start living my life again?