Whew

It's official! I am totally and completely finished with all of my Christmas shopping and baking! Well, we do have Christmas dinner to make and cookies for Santa but other then that I'm done. Maybe now I can finally start enjoying the holiday. Every year just seems to get a little more stressful and less magical. Of course, I don't think we have had one Christmas since I have been an adult without some issue to deal with. It's either that we don't have much money, we're dealing with the loss of a loved one, last year was a little bit of all of all that and, as you all know, much more. This year it's that for all intents and purpose I have been pretty much a single parent for the last 3.5 months. It so sucks! It's also made it that much harder to get into the Christmas spirit. It's much easier when you have someone to share your stress with at the end of the day. And sometimes the phone just doesn't cut it. I have so much more respect for my Mother now. Not because she ever had to be a single parent but because I now know what all she had to do to make my childhood so magical and special. Wouldn't it be nice to be a kid again just for a day or two? Just long enough to remember what it feels like to be innocent and stressfree and not feel like the weight of the world is on your shoulders. Can I make that my Christmas wish?